The Journey of Letting Go

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In life, there are moments when stepping back can feel like failure, but in truth, it can be a step toward freedom and discovery. Between August and November, I found myself on such a journey, one that began with a decision to step away from pursuing my doctorate—a path I thought I was meant to follow. What unfolded, however, was a season of unexpected growth, spiritual renewal, and deeper intimacy with God.

Releasing the Plan

The decision to pause my doctoral studies was not taken lightly. It was a choice wrapped in prayer, reflection, and a sense of divine prompting. While there was some disappointment in letting go, there was also an unshakable peace, a quiet assurance that this was not the end of my learning but the start of something new.

Redeeming the Time

Though I set aside formal studies, I committed to reading every book required for my coursework. I approached them not as academic assignments but as tools for personal transformation. Two works, in particular, became pivotal: Spiritual Rhythms by Mark Buchanan and Sacred Pathways by Gary Thomas.

Buchanan's insights on slowing down, finding rest, and creating rhythms of grace spoke directly to the pace of my soul. I began to recognize the need for intentional sabbath moments, not just on Sundays but woven throughout my weeks.

Gary Thomas expanded this awakening, helping me see the diversity in how people connect with God. Sacred Pathways invited me to explore how my own spiritual temperament could shape my worship and deepen my relationship with Christ.

Rhythms of Renewal

This journey became less about what I had let go of and more about what I was gaining. Inspired by these readings, I began cultivating practices that centered me on God's presence. I explored creative expressions of worship, found solace in nature, and rediscovered the joy of silent prayer.

Through this, I realized that academic achievement was never the goal—knowing God was. The disciplines I once approached with obligation became delightful as they drew me closer to His heart.

A New Horizon

Now, as November comes to a close, I find myself standing on a new horizon. The path forward may not include a doctorate, but it holds something far richer: a life anchored in sacred rhythms and pathways. This season has taught me that stepping away is not failure but a reorientation, aligning my heart more fully with God's purposes.

For anyone in a season of letting go, I encourage you to lean into the unknown with trust. God's plans are rarely what we envision, but they are always for our good.

As Mark Buchanan writes, "The sabbath is about trust. It's about relinquishing control and allowing God to hold the world together while we rest." Indeed, God has held my world together—and through His grace, it has flourished.

What season of growth might God be calling you to embrace?